Disappointment after disappointment

希望越大 失望越深 爱得越深 伤得越痛 这些 我终于明白了 领悟了 Its been so long. Doubt anyone will ever see Believed in love Believed days will be better Somehow still had hope as long as it wasnt the end But we made the end The incessant lies Omission of truth Totally masked the happy family i visioned I just wanted a simple no secrets family I guess a character can never be changed Some are just born to be playful Testing limits Wanting to try various experiences I never was All i ever wanted was truth Not what i see in front but what i get when i am not around I dont need off phones Not knowing whom u meet Dont need secret meetings behind my back Dont need fake attention Dont need possessiveness I dont want people to reciprocate just because i want it Why must it depends on my decision Even if i still loved i will never say Because you have proved how much you needed to try more women But its ok. Again i felt this heart pain So pain i couldnt breathe and broke in tears But its ok Its the last time And to think i had wanted to try another shot I even told warni i wanted to have a nice house and try having another few kids Probably all along i am just dreaming that you will be true to me Wendy*6 The difference in our hearts

all i wish

i miss the times you let teddy don my bra n made me laugh i miss the times you spanked me as an when missed the times you touched me when i was asleep i missed our silly laughs at each other i miss everything we used to have all i wish is for it to come back wendy*6 i miss the love we had how did things come to this? will we ever be like that again?

I really wish ... you would touch me more...

Serenade me with your yearning Intoxicate me with your kiss Tense me up with your touch Warm me up with your hug I wish i didnt feel so alone I wish someday Its proven that love does exist and we only have eyes for each other That intimacy would not be a taboo That we were not lacking in anyway That they call it sex but we are making love... Wendy*6

want or need?

and sometimes its so difficult to differentiate difficult to set the message across i need some romance and i do say it so i dont get what i need and how am i supposed to.deal.with it? when both have different demands in bed how to deal with my needs? if i have to diy myself then defeats the purpose of intimacy with another. i am nearing 30 i dont wanna get old feeling like i have been missing out alot on kissing etc but how do i get it since i have asked for it and it still doesnt happen? when one likes and one dont? am i supposed to just keep and keep making myself feel like it doesnt matter when it matters alot to me and when i cant take it anymore and then?

Sometimes, We just need to try to understand because there are no answers.

I took a huge step out of my comfort bubble It has been a lot To find out so many things at one go I never realised you had your insecurities and all along I thought you had never appreciated me I thought you never worried about losing me I decided that I shouldn't have been resentful and missed out all that you were doing for me You cant feel a persons sincerity when clouded by resentment to let the past go to continue the road abiding by our vows and promises now we have gone through so much to get here I am certain that I love you and no one else Yes, I am glad we did not do anything detrimental that may cause us to be separated forever I will no longer be shrouded by the past I want to bask in your love I want to be the same girl who first fell for her first and last love I want to be the women behind your success I want to be the women of your love I want to be your last love in your life I want to build a happy family with you I want to make more beautiful kids with you From now on I shall not be sucked by negativity I want to live my life happy and make you happy and I hope we can grow old blissfully together Wendy*6 And she took a last look back exclaiming if I had to choose again I would still choose you I would still choose to fall into your bottomless pit LLLU (Lerp Lerp Lao Uncle)

Always the only one

You have always been the only one i wanted What about you? Am i the only one you want? I still fall in love with your smell Your touch your eyes But have you been sharing whats supposed to be only mine? Taking off my ring everytime something happens I am done with that I hope one day You will slide the ring on me again And this time Its because you just want to be mine When you decide to be committed And Truthful And not ever hurt me again If a part of you still wants to play Then reconsider your choices I know i havent been the best either But i know i will strive to be now Honesty and truth is what i hope for And i hope you will pull it through. I no longer want to put on my ring Until one day you feel the same as i do No longer want to put it on myself Because its your vow to me that you have to be true to Where your body mind soul and heart truly belongs to me And not a single one is missing In this sacred unity that we once vowed to withold. Wendy*6 We may have went a bit out of track but i have always been true

Valentines day is coming. draggy...

I wished i could at least have a taste of a valentines menu I am coming 28 and not even trying it once seems so pathetic Should have dated more and enjoyed reciving flowers etc more albeit more heartbreaks haha Its the same anyway dated 10 man also kena heart break Date 1 man also heartbreak lol.